Around The Table Blog

So decided to climb a mountain this morning and regret my choices. I was like yeah what will be the harm in going for a walk up a mountain. Well let’s see, last time a weighed my self is was 20 stone, at that point you stop counting, the last time I did any exercise was at one point during the summer. So as you may be able to tell got probably less than half way up and was on the ground like a golf fish out of water. But on the good news I am alive although coughing up a lung in the middle of a cafe.

My question is why are we harsh on our selfs and why are we so critical. So my internal monologue went through a couple of thoughts up there while being battered by the winds . One being ohhhh god what if they find you dead on the very bottom of the mountain, how embarrassing. The other was how did you let your self get like this you are so unhealthy; and some other rude words to my self. Obviously this is not for ever as now looking at the menus I question if I can bring my self to stuff the gaping maw of my mouth with some cooked food.

My other question is why am I going up the mountain, if I am honest to my self I feel that it is a need to say when I go back to work from the holidays I climbed a mountain now me and the person in the staff room both know that I did not climb the mountain like Bear Grylls but it sounds much better than I sat in a cafe eating a cooked breakfast. So what we do is we both nod and I feel that I have done something unique and boast-able while the other person goes damn what did I do over the break.

This comes to one of the reasons why I am doing this blog is to be more truthful. I am I bit of a habitual liar nothing to the sense of lying about cheating or lying about my penis size but more embellishments or little white lies for the sake of saving face or making my self look a little better. One I remember is one of my past bosses being like “have you finished such and such” I would be like yeah I finished it 3 hours ago, when in actual fact I finished it about 10 minutes ago. Why did I need to lie, there was no point to the lie, they weren’t going to give me a promotion and it was not due then so why?

Now obviously as I have gotten older it has reduced more and more, but it still goes back to the reason I started this post, other than me being in a shop waiting more my more healthier friends to come back; it is because I think this is a new essential part of life for me is to be brutally honest with my self through placing this up on the internet for any person to read and being completely honest.

This is where I feel the nature of my blog will slowly change because I feel that originally I was going to start with one post every Sunday, then yesterday I was like bugger that let’s do it today (Saturday) so now I have decided that the junk draw sections will be everyday before 11pm and will be my thoughts about different things in my day to day life and maybe answering some questions from my dedicated followers, now that I realised how easy it was to read comments 🙂

P.s the writing sections just for pace sake will still be every Saturday before 11pm at the moment. Never know though may change to more often 😉